13 - NICE PEOPLE AND COUNTERMEASURES

I’ve been so caught up with work I didn’t have time to write. To really be honest I’ve tried not to think about anything and that’s why I haven’t updated my craziness.

This morning though I’m quite miserable. I haven’t been able to work-out for several days (make it 3) and yesterday I had a birthday dinner and I was hungry all day. I think I’m thorough some hormonal phase but I haven’t slept home yesterday so I couldn’t have a nice face-to-face with WTP and I’m pretty worried. This morning I didn’t have my soy cappuccino with my 2 biscuits (the only thing that make it worth waking up in the morning), I traded it for a pear-juice with 2 rusks and a black coffee (no sugar of course).

I’m planning not to have snacks (maybe an apple in the evening but only if I’m on the verge of eating my desk) and I have with me boiled chicken – my lunch – with no side.

Tomorrow morning I should be able to face WTP so I’ll know how guilty I’ll have to be, for now I’m going to take a bottle of still water from the vending machine and drink it all up.

I’m upset but not that upset because yesterday at dinner a few people I haven’t seen in a while complimented me so I got it I’m thinner than last time they saw me although I’m not even near to how thin I would be (5 kg less would be just great – but I’m asking the impossible to my body).

Also I bought a pair of trousers from my former favorite brand size S. Of course this model fits more than the usual average S trousers from this brand, nevertheless, I wore a size S trousers and I was quite happy.  It is different being a M on the S side of the size than on the L side of the size. It was a tad contorted, I know. (see? Numbers – sizes in this case – make my days)

A friend at the restaurant actually told me she liked the shape I’m in and when I ordered plain chicken breast and grilled vegetables she said (yesterday I loved her more than the usual, and she is a very sweet woman)  I was ok and did not need to lose more pounds but I  countered that I’m not on a diet I’m just avoiding gluten and she nodded. She is a doctor and she is also always on diet, I don’t have to explain her stuff. I may have lied a bit about the gluten bit but it work so nicely when people start ask about think they are not supposed to know.

This is how my gluten “version” works: “it’s been two months I’m avoiding gluten, my diet is a regular one, I haven’t lost pounds – no more than two anyways – but since the gluten avoiding by body swelled down”. You should try it, it’s amazing and people just stop bothering you.

Anyways, I hope this evening I’ll get home at a reasonable hour so I can work-out and I pray tomorrow WTHscale will merciful. OVER.

I’m OUT at least for today.